I got out of the habit of doing these

so yeah.. magnets? just lumps of metal that attract other lumps of metal, made by hitting bits of metal with other bits of metal really hard while the first bit of metal is pointed in a certain direction, and they also point in certain directions.. it just doesn't make sense

and what's the connection between gravity and magnets.. i sit the same thing? i'm not metal but i stick to the ground (which isn't metal), and apples definatley aren't metal

none of it makes sense at all... 

you can tell it's been a long week when you come to update your real-time autobiography for the first time in ages and all you can think to talk about is physics

truth is it's been a very functional week, a list of definate tasks which took no real creativity and just a lot of 'being there' followed by sleeping and repeating, the tasks were fulfilled, and at times even enjoyable, and of course one particular night was incredible in many many ways, but no time given to pause and reflect and think of stuff to say that's been said before in a hundred different ways but at least this time it's in your voice

fortunatley i've been saved by the return of the recurring nightmare, the one that happens 5 minutes after you fall asleep and gathers in intensity until you have to force yourself awake for sanities sake and then have too much adreneline pumping to sleep again for an hour which is great when you only had 5 hours to go at in the first place, but y'know, i like horror films

in 24hours from now i'll have 24hours of freedom, i've made plans to spend them doing a close approximation of what i would ideally do with freedom, i really should get a haircut and do some washing instead

that was fun

Sometimes, just sometimes, the woe is away.

the last 6 days have knocked me for six a bit, 7 days ago i got a real kick in the balls, and i say that not in a judgemental way, from the right perspective everything anyone ever does is the right thing, but from my own point of view it was a definate wound to the nadgers

everyday since then so many people have been so fantastic, i kinda feel guilty for being a bit of a dick most of the time, and tonight.. well... tonight was something really special

so i owe heartfelt thankyou to a lot of people and i intend to dish them out, but just incase my emotionally retarded englishness prevents it being obvious, if you're reading this, i probably owe you thanks.. so thanks

on another note, i've been thinking about magnets alot this week.. magnets are mental aren't they?

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