The other life

it's been 8 days of pretending to be in a band as a lifestyle option, it's not glamourous, it's drive, unload, gig, load, drive, sleep, repeat, it's cabin fever, it's sweat, it's discomfort, it's waiting around, walking around, sitting around, being around, considering the needs of other people (i won't say feelings, because, well.. it's me) without ignoring your own desires to the point where you're just going through the motions because that's no use to anybody, it's allowing for the different lifestyles and experiences of others, it's making things run smoothly while still keeping them fun and relaxed, it's getting it wrong, it's tears, it's angry moments, it's harsh words and confrontations, it's waking up in one city and going to sleep in another and never seeing anything other than roads, the insides of venues and darkened rooms full of sleeping bags, it's putting trust in strangers, it's putting faith in yourselves, it's putting your hopes in the hands of crowds, it's finding that fine line, it's being surprised, it's being disappointed, it's being frustrated, it's being elated, it's talking about the future, it's not thinking about the future, it's driving through unfamiliar territory. lost, confused and under pressure, it's losing things you need, it's keeping focused, it's looking for distractions

it's the best way yet that i've found to live life on a day to day basis and i wouldn't swap it for the world, it's missing nothing, having only to think about the task at hand and snatching the fun wherever it presents itself, obviously anything that involves living with other people 24hours a day is a challange, that's why 90 percent of marriages end in divorce (that and of course the fact that love doesn't exist and that people only get married because it's one of criteria which society/history has set for a succesful life, and because they are so utterly afraid of being alone.. but that goes without saying), but.. what was my point? i dunno, i'm sure it was pretty woe though, yeah.. erm.. everythings wow.. that sounds like me

wait

oh yeah, i'm enjoying myself

don't tell anyone

i like the fact that those tiny tight shorts are back in fashion

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